Contentment - whats that?, can we eat it?

After having a really long chat with a very of mine, I think I found out what HAPPINESS is...really you might be asking you found happiness, where under the bed, under the table, in your underwear? WHERE Damnit... and my answer would obviously be NO....
Contenment is YOU!!! Nobody else but you.

While thinking about what my first blog would be about, I found this saying :
''“We tend to forget that happiness doesn't come as a result of getting something we don't have, but rather of recognizing and appreciating what we do have''



How hard can it be to sit back in complete and utter silence and acknowledge the thoughts that go through your mind? I mean have you ever tried that , sat in complete stillness and have just let your thoughts take over and after they have, you then release them into the universe, breathe and then your okay?


About a month ago or so I did this. Took some real me time out and went out to a beautiful place in Port Elizabeth ( Where my heart probably resides) called Kragga Kamma. I had, had enough of the city, the people and their issues and work. I still have no idea what I was thinking when I decided to book a ticket and fly down to PE and go away by myself...was I INSANE? Chances are yes, but oh well here we are now.
So I ask a friend to take me through to this place that I have no idea what its like, I mean it could breed serial rapists for all I know, but too bad I was going to do this.
Sometimes the greatest things come from not planning or worrying and just doing and really crossing that bridge when you get to it.

So here I am in the bundu's with nothing but my book Eat, Pray, Love and my laptop to watch movies with and of coarse all this silence. WHAT THE  HELL AM I GONNA DO NOW?? A little voice said “:exactly what you came here to do, deal with you!” I did just that I went and sat outside and read my book for maybe all of 10minutes and then I found myself just sitting there, no longer reading but processing my thoughts and taking in all this silence that was happening around me. Not once, was I afraid of my thoughts and how they are going to consume me, if they were going to consume me, let them do it now, because I was ready for that to cry, laugh and talk to myself in the name of being okay with me.

I learnt that the keyword here was being CONTENT and being okay with me. Other people might not be okay with me, but I am doing what I know best and that is me.(Although I am still learning to be me )
The friends and the family members that are okay with me are all that I do need and well anyone can pretty much just go jump. Needless to say that after coming back from the silence, I appreciated myself more and the people that surround me. I was now okay to deal with what the universe was going to throw at me (that’s another blog for another day).

I think many of us are soooo scared of our thoughts and judge ourselves too harshly before anybody else even does. So I say when you can finally do the following then you are what I like to call it “Chilled Vibes” about life. :

When you can be okay with not jumping from one relationship to another just so that you are not lonely, then you are OKAY and CONTENT.

When you are not judging yourself and can have a conversation with yourself without beating yourself up about it then you are OKAY and CONTENT.

When you can go to bed at night without thinking ''man you fucked up again'' then you are OKAY and CONTENT.

When you can sit and be comfortable with your own thoughts then you are OKAY and CONTENT.

It is true that happiness truly comes from the inside and nobody else. Anybody else just is an extra added bonus and well kinda just makes life swell :) but just because you don't have anybody doesn't mean that you aren't content.

So to end this off I say go on, I dare you TAKE A REAL SILENT MOMENT FOR YOURSELF and see how well you can deal with your thoughts.
Once you have, it's pretty much that simple.