My Wish For You

I wish that you can start to LOVE yourself first, before you share yourself with anyone.

I wish that you can love yourself fully with your flaws and all, and learn that those are what makes you beautiful and unique to people.

I wish that you can feel comfortable and just right in your own skin.

I wish that you can forgive however hurt you, and mostly learn to forgive yourself for any wrong that you have done to anybody else.

I wish that you can learn to appreciate spending time alone and know that it is okay to do so.

I wish that you can learn to appreciate you and your values before you share yourself with anyone.

I wish that you can realise how much potential you have and fully go for it.

I wish that you can learn how great you are, and that nobody should try and correct the way you are.

I wish that you can learn that your own validation starts and ends with you, and that other people can add to it, but can never fully validate who you are.

I wish you all of this, but above all…..

I WISH YOU LOVE, JOY and HAPPINESS with YOURSELF. Because when you love yourself that much more than anyone else who comes into your life, you wont need that validation because you will already know how amazing you are.

Conversations with my 21 year old self....

Dear 21 year old me.

Firstly you are pretty…people will tell you that and well best you believe them, because it wont be a lie. People are going to call you a coconut and at first it is going to hurt, but then you are going to learn to accept that and at the end of the day, people are going to love you for your coconut tendencies.

You are going to discover that you are an emotional creature…from not showing emotions at all to being broken for a year or so.

You will discover that you have a very strong sixth sense and that your GUT is always right no matter what the situation is. Trust that feeling its one thing that is going to help you get by. You will also discover that you are everyone’s guru from your friends, to your boss and to your family. You will learn and know that you can give out advice…and pretty damn good advice at that too to others but can’t seem to take the advice yourself…Story of your life really.

You are going to discover that YOU have so much love in you, it actually hurts to think about it, but what will hurt the most is you won’t be able to share the love you have with a special person.

I can advise however (seeing that I am good at it) to NOT FALL INLOVE with anybody…doesn’t matter race, gender or whatever…JUST DON’T FUCKEN DO IT. Because once you do, you will realise that there is no turning back after you’ve fallen into this pit that they call love and then you will struggle to get out for a very very very long time. You will cry, laugh, cry, laugh, think you are okay and then you’ll discover that after a year of telling yourself your okay…well you actually aren’t and chances are you wont be for another 30 years of your life. You will discover that there is a thing called hope and that miracles do happen and that things happen all for a reason.

You will also have the urge to grab your heart out your chest and throw it out, because it hurts so much to have all these feelings floating around you. This pain and heartache will consume your heart for at least a year and as HARD as you try to let go and release the person, you’ll find that, the universe and whoever the greater powers are, they are refusing to actually wash your heart and brain free from this person. This is when you will discover that you will have to keep this person in your heart, because clearly there are bigger plans and surely this is why they can’t leave your heart.

People will see you as the life of the party and naturally you will be, but you will also see that sometimes you just want to be alone and reflect and that’s okay. When you do get a chance to sit down and reflect you will discover that you can tap into something much higher than you and that will freak you out. Don’t be freaked…take time and listen to the inner voice, when it tells you that everything will be okay in the end….and well if your not okay then hell clearly this is not the end.

There is so much more that you are going to discover, about everything and anything that you allow yourself to know and learn about. All I can really say is…discover all of these things yourself and don’t be afraid  BECAUSE EVRYTHING ALWAYS WORKS ITSELF OUT IN THE END.

Follow your heart and voice and always believe!!!

Love 23 year old me.

I always knew that I can do things spur of the moment and well pretty randomly, but never in my wildest dreams did I ever think that I would book a Thailand trip and have it all payed in the space of just 2 months and the best part of it all…it was not even part of the plan!!!

About 3 months ago, a friend of mine approached me with the idea of going to Thailand, because for some strange reason she convinced me that Thailand would be faaaaaar cheaper than booking a trip to good old Cape Town….sorry what Thailand…well I mean I have always dreamed of owning my own island and well this was as close as I am going to get to it ( for now that is). So without even thinking it was ‘’okay sure lets do this thing’’… and that’s where it all started.

This being my first overseas trip I was rather cool, calm and collected , okay well it’s cos I was travelling with a frequent traveller and she made me feel at ease. We left SA on the 18^th April, all kitted out with our jersey’s and jeans and well little did we know that we would want to strip allll of our clothes off the moment we landed in Bangkok ( we had a connecting flight to Phuket)

We eventually got onto our connecting flight after waiting for what seemed like eternity…I wanna see the beach already damn it! None –the- less we got to the Phuket Airport and we had a car pick us up and take us off to our hotel. We stayed at 3 star hotel, close to the beach…and I mean close as in across the road is the beach kinda close.

We really spent majority of our time either at the beach, or lying around by the pool and well shopping at the market and the mall. Now the thing about the market is YOU HAVE to bargain with the people, every time you are trying to buy an item of some sort. If you don’t negotiate, well they will rip you off, so I also spent majority of my time bargaining for clothes at a cheaper price ( after a while it gets annoying and you just want to buy things at a price they are sold at)

On one of the days we went Island hopping and went to the Phi – Phi Islands ( one of the beaches there – Maya Beach was where the movie The Beach with Leonardo Di Caprio was shot) I HAVE NEVER SEEN such beauty and close to perfection of a dream…it’s almost like paradise.

On our second last day we went to James Bond Island , apparently it’s famous from one of the James Bond Movies…go figure.

On our last day we thought heck we can’t be in Phuket and not go and see the famous Ping Pong show ( I mean we had seen many she-males and well that was nothing new). No w the ping pong show is helluva interesting, how does a woman discover that she can shoot a ping pong ball, a banana ( without squashing it), blow a whistle, blow a blow-pipe and shoot darts , open an old school coke bottle and my most favourite, pull out 9 Minora blades and prove that they are sharp…all out of her you know what ( can’t find a word for it that’s not crude…actually as a friend said her AREA).It is beyond amazing and I just cant seem to believe it but it happened right there in front of me. I wont lie paying about R200 for a beer was well worth it and I drank the full beer…

Thailand has beautiful people, that are humble, friendly and eternally grateful for everything. South Africans could learn a thing or two from these people.

Def going to go back there soon. 

Hope you enjoy and if you ever in your life get a chance to travel, do it… don’t wait to be a millionaire, it might never happen. Do it now!!!

P.S Ladies starting practising how to blow a real whistle out of your AREA. Incase your present job fails you, you could always get a job in Thailand…. I’m just suggesting the whistle, nothing else J

Will post a link to where you can look at some of the pictures, seeing as though I am too cool for Facebook.

A Helping hand.....goes a long way

I am pretty sure ,most of us remember March 11^th 2011 when Japan was hit by an earthquake measuring up to a magnitude of 8.9 and then to top it all off a Tsunami hit at the same time.

After  the earthquake and tsunami hit, the coldest conditions arose and thousand of people were left destitute and thousands dead.

I personally can’t imagine how it would feel to have your life wrecked in a matter of seconds because of a natural disaster. I guess though someone in SA didn’t have to imagine what it feels like and she did just what her heart told her to do and that was to help people in need.

The ever so stunning Lalla Hirayama did a fantastic job, by doing a great  charity event  that took place at The Zone – Rosebank on Sunday 27 March 2011 to help raise funds for those that are in need in Japan. What a great turn out and I am sure lots of money was raised..BIG UP TO LALLA J

After going to this event it got me thinking, of how we are so focused on ourselves that we forget those that are in pure need of anything and everything. It doesn’t take a lot of effort to donate used clothes, toys or even helping out with painting or repairing a home of a charity. Whether you are passionate about animals , kids, the elderly, or even a green peace loving person if you can do your bit get up and do it.

GET UP AND DO YOUR THING FOR OTHERS, and I am sure that it will come back to you in some kind of blessing or another..If it doesn’t at least you will go to bed knowing that you did something great for someone and what a feeling to carry around.

I know that I am about to get involved in something great..

P.S All I'm saying is Lalla has just gained herself a new fan ;)  

Nobody Likes You When Your 23...LIES!!!!

Blink 182 lied when they said nobody likes you when your 23!!!!!

I felt nothing but love..Then again its just the start..hehehe

What an awesome 23 Birthday I had this past weekend , I think it can easily go down as the best one that I have had, even beats my 21^st.

The day started out rather all wet and gloomy and I thought I should cancel the whole picnic thing and come up with a plan b, but then I thought hay dancing in the rain could be fun, so let us move forward with the plans. As usual I was late (why are we surprised) then again it was my birthday so I could abuse it while I can…not too sure what excuse I am gonna use after this, but oh well.

We headed off to the Walter Sisulu Botanical Gardens, out in the land of Roodepoort and I didn’t get lost,( I deserve a medal right now.lol) we arrived about an hour late, but it turned out all good.

I have been blessed with such amazing friends, its just plain craze…friends that know me and love me for whom I am and my life and soul would be incomplete without them.

Some people didn’t like each other, but that didn’t stop them from coming and sharing an awesome day with me. Other people didn’t know each other, but enjoyed the company non-the less.

One of my favourite parts was when Sade and I walked, ran and strolled in the rain, all while having deep conversations, which was just too awesome for words.

The whole day was just pure magic, from phone calls, to sms’s and the company..

I LOVE EVERY SINGLE PERSON THAT MADE MY DAY. Words can’t begin to describe the love I have!!!!!!

P.S I love everyone, except for the girl that stole my tub of sweets…so bleak still L

2011 - Its juuuuuuust the start of it all!!!!!!

Shoo weee.

What an awesome weekend that I had this past weekend. Best one of this year, so far.

I went to a wedding this past weekend and what a beautiful one it was. It was a traditional wedding and there was nothing but love and happiness in the air. Black weddings are the best ever, a) cos hay it NEVER EVER starts on time, b) the food is just always so good c) there is just so much celebrating its crazy. Dancing , singing, drinking and just happiness.

Mpho and I were about an hour and a half late, but actually we were on time cos it’s a black wedding and African timing is always on my side J.At this wedding I learnt that people can meet and know each other for 12 odd years, live their lives and then find that they are meant for each other so many years later  and the just make it work.

I learnt that people can be so humble no matter how rich they are and that makes them so much more enjoyable and so human.

I also learnt that the hotter a person is and the less they know they are hot, well basically the hotter they get in my eyes.

Mpho, taught me to panic from the inside and keep calm on the outside, nobody wants to see a panicky person…well a panicky me rather.

Singing at the top of your lungs and people thinking your craze, is by far the coolest thing ever.

Walking  through a mall, while wearing traditional attire and buying ice cream is actually better than singing at the top of your lungs.

Being spontaneous is what I do best, when I want to. I need to know more people who are just as spontaneous and yes just as cool as me as well.(Grappie J )

I’ve also learnt that there are some friendships that have expired and renewing them seriously wouldn’t bring any value to my life and I am okay with seeing them once every  7 months or so. Sounds horrible, but suppose that is the nature of the beast…Or maybe it’s the nature of the beast when you are forever whining about stupid things and just being on a different level to the rest of us *sigh*

I learnt that YES actually you should dance like nobody is watching, because really nobody cares that you are doing the ‘’charlie brown’’ or dancing like you are from the 80’s...because at the end of the evening everyone is here  to have a good time and you should do just that.

I also realised if ‘people’ are making out on the dance floor, then actually I am too old to be there..LOL.

I really did learn a lot this weekend I suppose, but mostly just have a damn good time, you live once and this is the year to break boundaries and perhaps a few hearts, but lets stick to just boundaries.!!!

2011 just got a whole lot more exciting!!!! LET’S GO!

P.S I also learnt that I want to have the DJ’s babies – HAHAHA.

P.S.S Romeo and Adonis are real people!!! J J J  

What I Learnt About Love In 2010

I learnt that love has no, age, colour, gender.

I learnt that love can burn you, like holding a hot coal in your hand, but yet you still want to hold it.
I learnt that love can look you in the eye and be honest, but at the same time hide so many truths.

I learnt that love does lie.

I learnt that love can hold you close and make you feel like the only person in the world.

I learnt that love indeed can be blind.

I learnt that love can kick you while your down but yet you can still believe in it.

I learnt that love, has no room for judgement just room for love and nothing else.

I learnt that love can hurt you, but still you want to love.

I learnt that some people have different views of what love is.

I learnt that some people run away from real love, to what they think love is.

I leant that love, is not an action, nor is it really a feeling it JUST is, but mostly

I learnt that love is strong and only cares for joyful giving.

I learnt that I will probably learn all these things again this year about LOVE and that’s okay, because LOVE  is really not a lesson to be learnt but an EXPERIENCE to be welcomed with both arms and to simply watch and let  it grow.

Resolu.....ah fuck it!

So here we are the New Year of 2011 and I bet you, everyone has a resolution list as long as their arm.
Everyone is also going to stick to it for as long as two days at the most.
Fine okay granted not everyone is that weak and some people do actually stick to their resolutions.

For me resoultions shouldn't even start in the new year, it should be about deciding what you are going to change in your life right here and right now.
Why do we always wait for the new year, or next week tuesday, or the months that end with a 31, or 13.30 on tuesday the 31st of February (yes I know feb has like 28days and sometimes 29 but you get the point)
What's this BIG sign that's going to come on those days, times or year.

The truth is we are never really waiting for a specific date, time, place or event... We are really waiting for ourselves! There is no BIG sign that says now is the time!
Now is the time! Right now! If you want to axe a friend, do it now, you want to quit yóur job do it now!

Maybe for your new years resoultion- don't have a resolution, just do what you want to do,and don't uhm and ahhh!

Yourself is here, so what are you waiting for?

Happy 2011...make it count, don't make it count, its really up to you at the end of it all and not the year!