Dear 21 year old me.
Firstly you are pretty…people will tell you that and well best you believe them, because it wont be a lie. People are going to call you a coconut and at first it is going to hurt, but then you are going to learn to accept that and at the end of the day, people are going to love you for your coconut tendencies.
You are going to discover that you are an emotional creature…from not showing emotions at all to being broken for a year or so.
You will discover that you have a very strong sixth sense and that your GUT is always right no matter what the situation is. Trust that feeling its one thing that is going to help you get by. You will also discover that you are everyone’s guru from your friends, to your boss and to your family. You will learn and know that you can give out advice…and pretty damn good advice at that too to others but can’t seem to take the advice yourself…Story of your life really.
You are going to discover that YOU have so much love in you, it actually hurts to think about it, but what will hurt the most is you won’t be able to share the love you have with a special person.
I can advise however (seeing that I am good at it) to NOT FALL INLOVE with anybody…doesn’t matter race, gender or whatever…JUST DON’T FUCKEN DO IT. Because once you do, you will realise that there is no turning back after you’ve fallen into this pit that they call love and then you will struggle to get out for a very very very long time. You will cry, laugh, cry, laugh, think you are okay and then you’ll discover that after a year of telling yourself your okay…well you actually aren’t and chances are you wont be for another 30 years of your life. You will discover that there is a thing called hope and that miracles do happen and that things happen all for a reason.
You will also have the urge to grab your heart out your chest and throw it out, because it hurts so much to have all these feelings floating around you. This pain and heartache will consume your heart for at least a year and as HARD as you try to let go and release the person, you’ll find that, the universe and whoever the greater powers are, they are refusing to actually wash your heart and brain free from this person. This is when you will discover that you will have to keep this person in your heart, because clearly there are bigger plans and surely this is why they can’t leave your heart.
People will see you as the life of the party and naturally you will be, but you will also see that sometimes you just want to be alone and reflect and that’s okay. When you do get a chance to sit down and reflect you will discover that you can tap into something much higher than you and that will freak you out. Don’t be freaked…take time and listen to the inner voice, when it tells you that everything will be okay in the end….and well if your not okay then hell clearly this is not the end.
There is so much more that you are going to discover, about everything and anything that you allow yourself to know and learn about. All I can really say is…discover all of these things yourself and don’t be afraid BECAUSE EVRYTHING ALWAYS WORKS ITSELF OUT IN THE END.
Follow your heart and voice and always believe!!!
Love 23 year old me.
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